Scarlet: I find it depends on the setting for me. Online I am extremely outgoing, or when I am cosplaying, I am very out there, wanting to talk constantly, and just put myself out there, but in other settings like in regular day settings, I can be a lot more reserved.
Steak: Maybe I should try cosplay then.
Scarlet: It’s something that helped me even before I knew that I was on the spectrum. When I was diagnosed, everything was just like a puzzle piece clicking into place, suddenly all made sense. “This is why I act this way, and this is why I might react that way,” and it was something that I wish I had known earlier. I also wonder how that would affect me if I had known that growing up because, probably is less so now, but there was and still is a stigma surrounding being on the spectrum and having autism and I wonder how that would affect me growing up. But being able to have it now as an adult, being able to explain it and having the words to explain how do I feel on the spectrum, I think that might be a bit easier. [sic]
What do you think other people take for granted, sometimes?
Steak: Being able to naturally fit in, without trying to work at it, but that is completely wrong, isn’t it? Neurotypical people don’t always fit in, do they?
Scarlet: That is what I was thinking about, neurotypical people.
Steak: Don’t know, that is such an alien concept to me.
Scarlet: When you are on the spectrum, or even have another mental health disability or disorder that you are working with, I guess that maybe some neurotypical people take for granted that they can control their emotions more? Or that they have can have control over some of the things that they do or feel or say. I mean, that is always to a degree, but there is a part of me that especially if I am experiencing sensory overload or I am in a more depressive state, I can’t necessarily control all my reactions or how they are coming across. So, I think that just being able to take for granted those emotions and those reactions.
Steak: Let’s pretend that I said that too [Laughs].
Fluffy: I was going to say that I feel that I am taken for granted, because I can be also very outgoing, friendly and trust people easily, but then there are some people who just totally can advantage of me, and it can really get to me a lot.
Tell us something that you have done that you are proud of?
Scarlet: Oh, this is where the impostor syndrome kicks in.
Fluffy: I remember some things in the past. I used to do a lot of performing on a stage, I used to play the flute in a band, and a choir, and those accomplishments make me happy to this day. Getting Affiliated on Twitch, that was also a big achievement for me in October last year.
Steak: The thing that I am most proud of is accepting myself for who I am as transgender and having come out subsequently after. It was 28 years of not knowing and then so much made sense.
Scarlet: I think that for me, I can give two things: One, getting better, especially after last year, just around the time that I was diagnosed. I was going through a bad breakup and I was in a bad way, really depressed and anxious. I ended up in the hospital for a while but, then, getting better and showing the world that I was able to be better, that I could do it for others, but mainly for myself, and just being happy within myself and finding that kind of even ground to stand on. And then, more outwardly, getting a commission to make a prop for one of the D&D players for the C team which is a Dungeons and Dragons show on [the] Penny Arcade channel, as being the people who run PAX and the webcomic Penny Arcade— That was also a huge thing for me and I think was also a sign of how far I’d come in being able to put myself out there, and be comfortable in who I am, and confident enough to be able to get those opportunities.
Fluffy: That sounds amazing.
What is something that you wish people knew more about being on the autism spectrum?
Fluffy: Oh, where to start? There are lots of things. Well, I heard that people on the spectrum can have obsessions, like a lot, and I can get really obsessed with a specific thing every few months, and people just think that I am too obsessed, to the point that they think that I am crazy and I am not crazy, I am just on the spectrum.
Scarlet: I totally get that as well.
Fluffy: Like, I am totally obsessed with Yu-Gi-Oh! right now. My entire Blue Eyes White Dragon deck is on the floor for some reason and people think that I am totally crazy because I have a character tin in my room that I bought for $45. I made my grandmother buy it and people think I am crazy for it.